Monday, March 12, 2007
@10:59 PM
seriously speaking, i am very tired.
maybe monday's blues.
maybe just pure frustration.
today while working, my mind wasn't with me.
my eyes were like dying to rest.
& i wanted to be back home sleeping on my comfy bed.
but i've to tackle this professionally (:
and that's to work.
perhaps it was the wedding yesterday.
perhaps it was the workload yesterday.
but i swear, i totally enjoyed working there though it's tiring.
i don't know man.
i just felt time passed real slowly today.
tons of students out in town today.
then i realised it's the start of march holiday.
like in any way it concerns me?
no, not at all.
it's just that.
hmm i'm sorry students (:
but those at heeren are freaking noisy.
like they own the whole heeren like that.
hello?
can't you be more considerate?
we don't wanna hear you scream like a lunatic.
it's so not cool.
we'll only think you're ..
hmm i'll keep it low (:
bosses finally came.
& i felt it was a bit weird today.
cause they know the fact i'm leaving.
anyway there were tons of laughter nevertheless.
CAUSE PAULINE GANGED UP WITH MY LADY BOSS TO MAKE FUN OF ME ):
but they were nice man.
cos they said they wanted to tease me cause im leaving.
next time no chance.
awww (:
mostly everyone working near me is living.
like damn.
lol.
flmp'll be left with only casey.
who'll leave ultimately one month after us.
like wth right?
hahha i definitely will miss working there.
perhaps heeren may not be the best place in town.
cos seriously their food are limited :x
but well, you know.
it's a matter of getting used (:
i don't know man.
i don't know whether to feel guilty.
but i'm not leaving cos of the pay im getting the other side.
its cos .. i guess the workload's more suitable there.
but well i learnt something after all of this (:
and i met fabulous people.
anyway, my main point is ..
cos back there, i always had to face stress.
feel stressed cos everytime a customer came in, i'd be hoping they would purchase something.
which .. well its like .. the more you hope, the more it wont happen.
so yeah.
why live life this way?
thus i chose another path (:
i don't know man .
i obviously know.
and i think my bosses also know who's the better salesperson.
who will be able to increase sales.
but well.
that person sorta gave her place up to her colleague.
& i know what my colleague does at work.
so .. i think she's not a suitable candidate.
but what can i say?
the only thing i can do to help them now.
is maybe to push sales like crazy.
and find the right person to take over.
oh yeah.
i didnt mention i guess.
i'm in charge of recruiting people (:
so if i dont like you, means you will never get in :D
ok thats bad.
but well seriously there are criterias to meet.
and the feeling you give me.
maybe this is a selfish decision of mine..
but i don't wanna live with that kind of stress anymore.
but this i swear.
Heaven has sent me the best bosses thus far (:
-
later at night.
pauline, renee and me talked about tons of things.
& ____ was telling me about so and so and whatever.
and something she said really struck me.
"i don't wanna hold on to something just cause it's nice"
hmm and something else.
" and what for hold on to him cause he's so nice to me? what for, when i don't love him?"
wah. and she spoke damn fast.
like .. becoming me.
LOL
cos when i talked sense into others, i'll be like talking damn fast.
and its like dont need to catch a breath at all.
HA!
anyway the first sentence .. the something mentioned was the past memories (:
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ok other than that.
i was wondering..
who do i love.
the past you?
or the you who has changed to someone i dont know at all?
then i realised.
it doesnt matter if its past present future.
as long you're just you.
hmmmm.
i didn't know there was a choice to wait or not to wait for your loved one who's in there.
until she told me today.
i guess it's different character.
because if it's me, i'll definitely wait.
it's like a marathon tomorrow.
so packed.
my schedule so packed.
& now i have to make a decision.
which side to work on wed.
both sides want me :/
and i need to take some off-days soon for those photoshoots.
