Thursday, March 08, 2007
@2:53 PM
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you've been in my thoughts for four years.
is it time for me to let go of these thoughts?
till now, i haven't gotten an answer from you.
for all that i did for you, did it ever touch your heart?
even now we're miles apart,
your heart far far away,
i'll still think of the memories we shared
back then, i blamed you.
blamed you for taking me for granted.
blamed you for not thinking of my feelings.
maybe you did.
you wanted to stop me from harbouring false hopes.
but don't you know me?
i'd rather hold on to these false hopes, then to see you dimishing from my world.
i was so silly.
four times i confessed to you.
each time i would cry, when you told me your mind hadn't changed.
when you told me you wouldn't give us a chance.
but whenever i bared my heart out to you, i already knew the answer i'd be getting.
so why.
why didnt i move on.
that hug we shared meant everything to me.
even it meant the first and last hug.
your cologne..
your smile..
here am i.
holding back my tears.
smudged eyeliner.
i have already let you go.
did you know that?
why still the coldness.
its just that no matter what,
when i think of you, i cannot stop the tears.
why was it a failure.
i often ask myself.
why.
eh wth.
people so emo..
then casey come.
cos mandl saw the tears in my eyes.
then casey also.
wth lol.
i witnessed you changed 3 girlfriends.
the first one, i was always there for you.
but the 2nd one, you refused to tell me anything.
i knew you didn't love her.
but you insisted you did.
& that was also when we drifted.
3rd one/
i guess you really really love her now.
so what could i say.
i cried once again.
now you're all bruised and battered.
i wanted you to brace yourself up.
but i know.
if i do that, the distance between both of us will widen.
i don't wanna think about the past.
cos' i know its useless.
it will never be so beautiful ever again.
i kept my promise towards you, all along.
you didn't.
that's when i gave up hope on promises.
i don't care who you love, just stop torturing yourself.
i believe she wouldn't want you to suffer as well.
